Paying for my sins

I find the departure hall at the airport is one of the most depressing places to be in. Another 3 days to go before having to step on the plane again…

It’s so disheartening when I have to stare into the eyes of my loved ones & kissing them good-bye, and then being wheeled into the departure gate. I no longer be able to hold back my tears wondering when will be the next time we touch and kiss again. My world is so dull and meaningless without them being by my side.

I always wonder what is installed for me by the Almighty. How and why am I being placed in this situation? What is the pleasant surprise behind all these misery, suffering and waiting game?

Could I have been sinning in the past that I am being punished now? Is there hope to be hopeful? Oh, please show me some signs…