The 3am itches

There it goes again! The 3 o’clock itches! Works like clock wise. Automated itches every day around the same time. The next one would be in the 3hrs time. Sigh!

Add-ons

I am down with a cold! Runny nose and terrible sore throat. My rashes are still flaring but it has subsided like 15% after 4 shots of traditional Chinese medicine for 2 days, consecutively. I am gonna get some more tomorrow as I have already ran out of the Chinese medicine.

Need to get some rest now…

In my dead bed

Can write properly. Whole body is flaring up! Itchy! Burning! Sore!

Will have to run to the doctor once the sun is up.

I am not here!

I have been away from my homeland for over 5 years now. I do not feel at home anymore. Nor do I feel welcome! The politics, people, and environment seem too life threatening for me. Due to this, I have been in hiding. I have not met anyone (the people I know) since I stepped foot on this soil. That was over a year ago. No one has my contact. Just as not many knew of my return.

I am not prepared to meet anyone. Neither do I have the energy to answer heaps of annoying queries. Somehow I felt that catching up with them is like feeding the trollers. So, for the past one year since I was forced to return, I did not venture out much. Mainly because I am physically challenged — achilles problem. Also, I don’t feel joy going out anymore.

This behaviour is certainly unhealthy! I am very clear of two things. Living in a private lifestyle is one thing. Deliberately avoiding ‘friends’ is another. I have bumped into one of my long time ‘friends’ twice in a shop. I literally hide in between an aisle to avoid her. I peeped and listened to her conversation at the cashier, just so I know she is done with her payment and left the shop! This is so sad! What is going on with me?

Have I lost trust in mankind? Why do I feel life is too risky for me to be here?